rants of a bittersweet

layout 1 and 2. proposed by joyce. which is which?

over the years, i have become comfortable with my own bubble. any one who bursts it for the wrong* reason shall ignite my wrath.

so unless i am assured of my own personal space, you can…

leave. me. alone.

*subjectively defined. based on mood and context.

our faces have just been shown… on national television… to talk about us and the great thing that has been done.

and its not just like any ambush interview done on the streets. we’re specifically invited to be there.

i’m lovin’ it

*oh, texts are coming in… even from all the way Singapore.haha*

something unexpected have come our way…

today, we have just finished taping for a youth-oriented talk show in NBN4! technically, maliit na bagay lang but its still national tv. weeee!!!

basically, the BIDA Team were invited to guest at the show as winners of the 2006 PRSP Grand Prix Competition (oo, hanggang ngayon PRSP pa din. wehehehe). as first timers, we admit to be nervous first ‘coz we’re afraid that we might stutter or make a fool out of ourselves by giving dumb nervous answers.  surprisingly, it went our smoothly naman :)  we were able to answer the questions without looking like idiots. hehe. personally, i can say that i somehow surprised myself with how i carried on throughout the taping. hindi ako na-conscious sa camera (probable side comment: ano si pam ma-koconsious sa camera?!). in fact, i was smiling like i’ve been doing tapings for the longest time. haha! tapos, nakuha ko pang mag-comment ng ilang beses kahit a minute before the taping ko lang nabasa yung issue. galing kong mag-kunwaring profound! bwuahahaha!! ;o)

also, nag-feeling artista na ako even before the taping. while the crew members were getting ready for the shoot, the executive producer (or something like it) showed us to the dressing room para ma-make-up-an and all. when it was my turn para ma-make-up-an, someone excused himself to me and gave me a copy of the script. grabe, ibang feeling un. parang VIP or something. lam mo yung mga nakikita mo sa tv na habang mini-make-up-an e chinichika ng make-up artist tapos may hawak na script? ganun ako kanina! haha!

hmmm… after naming ma-invade ang Internet at national tv, ano pa kayang susunod?

wehehehe :->

somewhere in between doing my part and being bored lies the event that changed me somehow. some three hundred and sixty five sunrise and sunsets later, im still stuck to thinking where it all went wrong.

and why.

in less than an hour, i’ll be turning twenty. i am finally letting go of the suffix ‘teen’ to my age. as such, it hit me that i am now entering a new dimension of life *how profound*, and i have the feeling that things will be on a faster and more rigorous pace from this point onwards.

but before anything else…

can i have a surprise? anything? anyone out there who has some trick up to his/her sleeves for me?

*fishing, fishing*

;p